Christmas Wishlist

I think its that time of the year to make a list of what I want for Christmas. In no specific order:

1. Blackberry 9900. Actually, I just want another smartphone. But, there is this chance that I will be able to have this one come December 8. My mom just bought this 2 weeks ago, but when in Vietnam, she found out that mobile providers in Vietnam actually charge a lot for BB service. So she decided to get another one, and that I buy BB 9900 from her instead. Yay for me! An installment-mode of payment with no specific time table. LOL. 
 

 Est. Price: P 31,000+

2. Kung Fu Panda 2: Kinect for Xbox 360. My Kinect is actually gathering dust because I don't like my Kinect Adventures. Though I have completed a considerable amount of levels, the game looks stale as you go through obstacle courses again and again. I fell in love when I watched the movie, and am intrigued with this relatively well-reviewed Kinect Game.

Est. Price: P1,800

3. Gold Membership at Xbox Live. I love every bit of my Xbox 360. However, I am not able to maximize the whole capacity of my console or have a total gaming experience as I am playing offline. It would be a blast to get this one. I may eventually get this but its currently out of the budget. It would be really appreciated if someone gets this one for me. Thaaanks!!!! Lol.

Est. Price: P2,500

4. PBA Tickets. Now this one is the more "realistic" wish among the things in the list. I want to watch PBA courtside! December 2 is a great schedule to watch courtside as power teams will be playing. Gary David, Asi Taulava, Mark Caguioa, Jayjay Helterbrand, Arwind Santos are just some of the athletes playing that night. But in any other case. I wouldn't mind any game as long as its courtside. Of course, it would be greatly appreciated if its for 2 pax. What better way than to enjoy the game with someone!

Est. 600 each

Merry Christmas everyone! 

Catch Me if You Can

Brace. Check.
Wheelchair. Check.
Game face. Check.
Look likes everything is set.
Open the gates,
gather all media you can get
I've done this all my life,
I can always pretend,
Ive done that in '04
I can always defend
myself through the lawyers
I can rent and pay
there is nothing you can do
I can always get away
before I get convicted
for the things that I've done
Farewell Philippines,
I'll be long gone.

When I entered into politics,
I have killed since
my litte Jiminy,
who rants about my sins.
Without that little prick
I never had to bother
nor think about the country
nor the rights of others.

What's more,
I'm lucky for sure
my nose does not lengthen
when I tell a lie or four.
All I'm now missing
is a low rider for the show
'cause I own
the "Lie, Cheat, Steal" phrase
not Eddie Guerrero.

No one can stop us,
not even two nor three,
not even four,
and not Lima definitely.
I have the SC behind me,
with all my midnight appointees
But wait,
who the hell is this Pasay RTC!

No warrant can defy my
plans of wanting to fly
Singapore, Hong Kong,
Turkey and back,
'Yes we can!'
Ramona and I
will say it with Barack.

I'll pull a Leonardo on all of you,
you'll be wondering where I went,
I leave you a note saying
I have gone, and I'll repent
This time I really will,
This is really real, 
I'll put my life on the line,
For when I die,
I'd lie still.

But sick or well,
I won't care about hell
I'd will not comeback for you all
All we have to lose,
is Atty. Topacio's balls after all.

Beauty I

I never had a concept of Beauty
it's hard to define
I thought for a time,
its essence was only mine.
But a lot has changed,
since that fateful day,
a witch changed my looks,
it then changed my ways.

Through a broken mirror,
I try to think,
about the past, the present
and what should have been
The mistakes I've made,
the unwise decisions
I remember them all,
through Reflection. 

From the best, to the Beast,
I am now wanted least,
hidden down in the crypt
where my secrets are buried deep.

And then came a maiden,
she wandered in the woods,
her smile shines in the dark,
her voice was just as good
as chirps in the morning spring
I felt a different ring,
with my heart fast beating,
I found my self staring. 

But the beast in me was defying
while on the edge I kept fighting
to succumb not to the urge of falling,
to that fucking
awesome feeling.

Belle. Her name.
More than beautiful than Notre Dame's,
she was not in a tower high,
but within my reach and gaze
She need not ring to call attention
Just her eyes, merits my affection
Though not a jewel decorated her,
not a gem can compete with her.

I'm luckier than Quasi,
and all his gargoyle friends,
all they have
is a fake bell to defend.
But at least they can all it their own,
one they can touch and hold
one they can truly care
all I can do is stare.

Stat Blog No. 1: New Job

Ohh. Testing the waters here in new job. Officemates seem great. What is interesting is that you are a pilot of your task. A certain data will be given to you, subject to your own interpretation and comprehension. You're analyses will be then presented to the lead researcher, who will not try to make something out of your data -- whether its relevant or irrelevant. Para nga lang araw-araw kang nagtthesis at mag dedefense at the end of the day. Well, thats what I make out of the briefing kanina.

I don't know if THIS IS IT, but this will definitely help me find my THIS IS IT job, especially with a tracking in the academe.

Ohhh. Wish me luck! At sana, makahanap na ako ng Friday/Saturday job to complement my research work.

Stat Blog

When Facebook is asking whats on your mind and its too long to post as status update, or when Twitter asks you about what you are doing and its more than 140 characters, you STAT BLOG it.

It's just basically blogging a status update or a feed -- the Mojojojo kind of way, explaining even when unwarranted or not necessary. This will also be a regular part of my blog.

Cheers!

Leaving Neverland

Leaving.
Isn't it an awkward feeling?
To act like everything is alright but deep down you're just trying
to be okay, to seem fine like nothing ever happened
but you know you will leave some people still disappointed.

Still you know its better this way,
to create a path of your own with no one else to blame
but yourself on wherever you might end up
Be glad these tough decisions will help you grow up.

You may feel like Peter Pan
wandering around searching for a better place than Neverland
You will leave your wild "boys" behind, and its sad
but unless you leave, you'll never mature on that island

Comfort zones have a funny way of making us mediocre,
where there are no challenges, we become weaker
contentment comes faster,
complacency then becomes a factor,
without any accomplishments, we somehow feel better.

But when you sleep at night, before you close your eyes,
you think about the progress, what was done during the time
you spent over the past weeks
you spent over the past days,
then you ask, are you now better than yesterday?

This is the insatiable need of man,
The emptying of the cup, learning a new craft
But the pursuit of perfection, and honing of the wit
is not as rewarding with no one to share it with.

So as you find niche, find your place,
Leave Neverland, push to be great
wherever you may land, strive to do well,
But dont forget your partner:
Your own Tinkerbell.

Ang Tula. Bow.

Ang hirap pala.

Bakit nga ba ang hirap gumawa ng tula?
Kadalasan nito hanggang simula
lamang ang nasusulat, hindi natatapos
parang gustong kumanta, pero paos.

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Oh diba?
Hanggang doon lang ang kayang saklaw,
ng utak kong para nang ampaw
walang kwentang talata, sobrang babaw,
Hay. Tang-ina. Bow.

I Shall Re... sign

When young, the saying "You cant please everyone" is often stated, but seldom understood. Sometimes, it even serves as an excuse, or as a justification to a decision. We try to rationalize the consequences of an action through this quote, saying that everything is okay even when not. When somebody would question our line of thought, we could just easily blurb this out. 

As a political scientist, this even represents a simple majority, or the concept of democracy in one hand. Those who oppose fall victim to the tyranny of the many.You can even squeeze in the concept of utilitarianism - the greatest good for the greater number of people. Whatever the case maybe, the saying actually is a simple lesson in life. 

The lesson is: You can't please everyone. 

I really dont know where I went there. The 'stream of consciousness' writing style has again sucked me in. My  rant above is also a reflection of my frustation maybe. I miss intellectual discussions. I miss being a student. I miss academic learning. And yes, academic is there for a reason to qualify what I miss. I know that there learning is ubiquitous, unending. But I miss the university-based learning. See, I over explained myself again. 

 In reality, I thought about the quote as I face another a dilemma. Life is actually unfair. There are no easy decisions. Bummer. I just resigned from work. Now having a new one. Seems like I disappointed people in my current company as we are in the crucial stage of the year having December as the peak of client servicing. But I really can't let opportunities pass me by. I cannot see myself doing insurance work for a long time. I don't see myself as a client manager 2 years from now. I really don't know what I want yet, but at least I know that I don't want this. 

Next week, I will be starting my job as a Research Analyst for the Philippine Institute of Development Studies. This is closer to politics, to political science, closer to what I want as a career track. If I will have the chance to teach, my experience in PIDS will help me for sure. 

I am just a little bothered about the people I will leave. I really don't want to burn bridges as I still owe it to them for giving me my first job experience. Though I might have picked the wrong time to resign, I really just wish my boss and my team the best. 

Oh well, if they are really disappointed, you know what they say: You Cant Please Everyone.